Crazy?

It was brought to my attention that I sounded a little crazy in my Not Me!. Well, I could very well be heading there.
But, am I allowed one crazy day here and there?
Yes, I ignored all housework for an entire afternoon.
Yes, we stayed in our pajamas until noon yesterday. We were getting caught back up!

We are preparing for a very long deployment next summer. Stressed about it? Yes. Scared? If you only knew. I have not really faced the reality of it and haven't really talked about it out loud too much. We will survive here at home, what else can we do about it?
You could say I am taking advantage of Daddy being home. I have been known to run off to shop by myself in the evening these past couple weeks.
We all have the days when we say out loud, "you are so lucky Daddy is coming home in an hour!". I am so blessed that I still live an hour and a half away from my family and I can head there (or vise versa) when I feel lonely. A lot of the wives here survive with four kids while they are thousands and thousands of miles away from family and their other half is gone for a year.
I still have winter and spring to prepare for him to leave, but I know it will be here, like, tomorrow.
It is so much to take in. An entire year without him.